One year changes everything...

I realized this morning that I hadn't posted here in almost year. Not that I didn't think about it. I did. a lot. I just seemed to loose track of time, and the original intent of this was to have a place to vent about my horrible working conditions. But now that has completely changed. I am in a completely different place.



I have yet again switched jobs. What I thought would be my dream job turned out to be one of hell. I was let go after just 8 months, and then she let go another staffer. We are still trying to figure that one out. But it was one of the best things that could have happened to me. I knew that I was miserable when I was lying to people and telling them how much I loved my job. Even I didn't believe me!



But since then, there were a few tears, a couple of panic attacks, and a lot of alcohol. There is also a new future. They say that you can never go home. But I think that you can. In a round about way. At least that is what I feel like. I was very fortunate to be able to start a temp and contract position within a couple of days. The temp position lead to a full time position and a new direction.



I have always wanted to be a program and event coordinator. I know that seems weird, but it is what I am good at. Now I am, in my hometown, working with many people that I have known since I was a kid. I get to plan and design my little heart out. I work in a community that welcomed me back with open arms, and I'm damn happy.



I am going to work on continuing to do this. I think it is healthy... plus now I am a published writer and not just here!

In the Begining...

There are probably a number of reasons that you found this blog. You were bored and googled something at work... You were searching for me and found me... You know me and I trust that you will understand that I although I love you, I may have to vent a frustration about you in this environment...

I hope to maintain an anonmity with this blog, but I may not. I know alot of people, they know me... and someone will figure this out... But here I am...

So why am I disenchanted you might ask? Well I guess part is because I always thought that my life would be something different now... I wouldn't be working somewhere that I hate... I would have a relationship or two under my belt... But instead I feel like I am spiraling to something that isn't anywhere near what I thought my life would be...

Secondly, I am starting to believe that there are more important things in life than the things that I felt the need to prioritize... Family and Friends over Career and Affiliations... I am starting to want to develop into a better person... Not that I am a bad person... but I feel like I am disappointing people... In fact my best friend told me today that I had disappointed her... That was a hard reality...

I'm not sure how to describe me... I was voted as one of the Volunteers of the Year for 2006, for an organization that I belong to.... I have a dog... M. I have great friends, a loving family, and a cool roommate... I have been to Europe, and want to go back... I live in a City, but not a big city... I have never truly moved outside of the county of my birth... My parents are still married, 30 years, and rarely even so much as bicker...

I am starting this blog to sort through the things in my life that I am quesitoning... There are many... and that scares me... I'm terrified that if I don't figure out what to do with the next stage of my life soon, it will be too late... I hope you enjoy this blog... that it provides insight and hope to you as well