One year changes everything...

I realized this morning that I hadn't posted here in almost year. Not that I didn't think about it. I did. a lot. I just seemed to loose track of time, and the original intent of this was to have a place to vent about my horrible working conditions. But now that has completely changed. I am in a completely different place.



I have yet again switched jobs. What I thought would be my dream job turned out to be one of hell. I was let go after just 8 months, and then she let go another staffer. We are still trying to figure that one out. But it was one of the best things that could have happened to me. I knew that I was miserable when I was lying to people and telling them how much I loved my job. Even I didn't believe me!



But since then, there were a few tears, a couple of panic attacks, and a lot of alcohol. There is also a new future. They say that you can never go home. But I think that you can. In a round about way. At least that is what I feel like. I was very fortunate to be able to start a temp and contract position within a couple of days. The temp position lead to a full time position and a new direction.



I have always wanted to be a program and event coordinator. I know that seems weird, but it is what I am good at. Now I am, in my hometown, working with many people that I have known since I was a kid. I get to plan and design my little heart out. I work in a community that welcomed me back with open arms, and I'm damn happy.



I am going to work on continuing to do this. I think it is healthy... plus now I am a published writer and not just here!

Times they are a Changin'

I am getting ready to hit a cross roads in my life. I will be leaving my current position and moving to a new company. I am not taking a "different" position, just the same job in a new company.


I have been in search of something different for a while now and it seems odd to actually be going somewhere new. I have been with my current company for a little over a year. It has had its good moment and its bad moments. But it seemed that my stress level has had more bad than good.


I am looking at this new position as an opportunity to do change everything. I don't mean my hair or my style. No those will stay in place. But my attitude, my confidence, my temperament, my outlook, they are all getting a make over. This is not my ultimate end goal job. But it is the closet step in the right direction that I have had. I am embracing it, smiling at the big guy up stairs, and saying a mighty big "Thanks!"


It's been a long journey to get here. I actually wasn't sure that they were going to bring me on board. I had met with everyone from this very small staff, and my last meeting had me questioning if this is what I wanted. But I consulted my most trusted advisors, and did some major soul searching. After gathering all of there information and weighing it I was able to reconcile in my head what I knew was an amazing opportunity.


I will be giving notice when my boss returns from a retreat on Monday. I don't know if he will keep me on for 2 weeks or if he will ask me to leave that day. I guess I will find out when I speak with him. He has given me some opportunity, and yet I feel like he doesn't trust me, or like me for that matter. I could be wrong, but I am generally a good judge of a person.


So, here is to me! Success, Passion, and Love (the later to follow soon I hope).

PS I love flowers... The majestic nature of the lone flower is amazing. I also believe that they have symbolism. The Hawthorne (pictured above) is a symbol of Hope and Prosperity.