In the Begining...

There are probably a number of reasons that you found this blog. You were bored and googled something at work... You were searching for me and found me... You know me and I trust that you will understand that I although I love you, I may have to vent a frustration about you in this environment...

I hope to maintain an anonmity with this blog, but I may not. I know alot of people, they know me... and someone will figure this out... But here I am...

So why am I disenchanted you might ask? Well I guess part is because I always thought that my life would be something different now... I wouldn't be working somewhere that I hate... I would have a relationship or two under my belt... But instead I feel like I am spiraling to something that isn't anywhere near what I thought my life would be...

Secondly, I am starting to believe that there are more important things in life than the things that I felt the need to prioritize... Family and Friends over Career and Affiliations... I am starting to want to develop into a better person... Not that I am a bad person... but I feel like I am disappointing people... In fact my best friend told me today that I had disappointed her... That was a hard reality...

I'm not sure how to describe me... I was voted as one of the Volunteers of the Year for 2006, for an organization that I belong to.... I have a dog... M. I have great friends, a loving family, and a cool roommate... I have been to Europe, and want to go back... I live in a City, but not a big city... I have never truly moved outside of the county of my birth... My parents are still married, 30 years, and rarely even so much as bicker...

I am starting this blog to sort through the things in my life that I am quesitoning... There are many... and that scares me... I'm terrified that if I don't figure out what to do with the next stage of my life soon, it will be too late... I hope you enjoy this blog... that it provides insight and hope to you as well